dont blink

i try desperatly to close my eyes and imagine for once that there is nothing around,

my own thoughts poisoning my mind

lights and images begin to flash onto the back of my eyelids as I strain to keep them closed

my mind wanders….

and retreats..

I soon realize that i must keep myself occupied in order to stay sane

so i begin to write,

and wonder why i haunt myself

each time returning to the thoughts i sought to escape